I wiped out what I wrote earlier today. I just spoke to Ryan, and he made it very clear that he will not be back as long as I'm in the house. He said his mom is working on finding me somewhere to live. He said he wants both boys in his house (with his mother) this weekend, and he would like for me to find somewhere else to go. He said the hug was a mistake. He said playing this little game with me ("guess what I took") was a mistake. He said I got him at a weak moment, and he has to stay away from me because those weak moments could start something that will set him back two or three months.
I told him I have nowhere to go, no money, no job, no credit, and my life is in ruins. He said everything would be fine.
I give up. I don't know what I'm going to do now.
focus on you and the boys... that is all you can do. You said you were doing this dare for you, not to get Ryan back. You said you were working on yourself so next time, you will be ready. I think you should continue to do that. Maybe the dare isn't the best thing to work on because it requires a partner's participation, but you could go and find something else to do for YOU!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry that you are sad Suzanne. I can tell you are by your post. Just remember, things always are changing. What is one way today may be another way tomorrow. And finally, if this relationship is meant to be, IT WILL BE come hell or high water. If it isn't meant to be, then it won't.... God knows what is best for us all...even when we can not see it
sorry that was from me.... it sent from my daughers thingy
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